this moment

Ain't nobody know you so deep that you know yourself.
Sometimes people always tell others like : ‘ Hey, I know this guy very well'
Is it really true?
Maybe you know how he/she the way he/she do, know he/she daily life action
but deep down their heart, there is always a private space for themselves
I guess is true.

I always hope a friendship will long lasting forever, like fo-ever
Nothing can beat this friendship , like there's a strong bonding between


I never meant to make more friends as others cuz i'm an introvert person
I barely could just sit aside and watch guys talk themselves
I don't mind to be ignore , and actually I enjoy it
Sometimes people talk to me , ' You look totally different when truly know you' blablabla
This kind of words actually exhilarate me , totally .. Ha

When i care something, I really care about it
I'll do what is the best for it becuz I enjoy doing it
I appreciate everything that happen between this relationship and never meant to lost it

Kinda of days like, i'm in my own excitement
this really happens and i feel im the one who care too much
and me, myself feel vexed all these times
am i too over reacted or did i think too much
no ideas at all
im sick of it

everyone is different
do not expect others to think what you are thinking
maybe the things you treat it like precious is the one that people dont even give a shit
you treasure this friendship  you think you are one of it and
sometimes you dont even know that there are no space for you already
they have their own circle own social circle own friendship circle
dont expect too much  it hurts you really bad when you fall deeply down
becuz it's just don't work that way


'You'll end up real disappointed if you think people will do for you as you do for them. Not everone has the same heart as you'

expectation kill everything  that's right
this is how i feel right now . i duno what will i feel the next morning but this moment
i feel bad, really really bad.
is time to go bed , goodnight
love ya, xx

Say hello to my holiday

Say Hi again..  I'm finally back from my busy uni life and homework + exam.

So Today, I'd finish my final exam and starting my holidays ~~~ been busy packing all the stuff and clothes into my luggage because I ammmm gonna move out from my hostel.
It's been a year, If I say that not gonna miss here - This is all just a lie, Haha.  I miss all those things that happened here, people I met, days we been through, and how we talk east talk west about everything. There're all just so sweet and memorable.

I'm Still bother about where should I stay When I move to north wings.  *sigh*
Apparently, I want to live outside becuz it's more free and more cheap than hostel ever again. No lie ** But in the other side, I struggle a lot and I feel like Maybe hostel is more suitable for me?  No idea
My mum is the one who completely dislike, reject, and donwan me to stay outside.  Too many reasons that make me feel like
* Maybe I shouldn't stay outside ,should stay in hostel *  am completely compelled

I want to make my own choice, you know. Those kind of things.  When you make a decision, sure that you hope your closely  one will stand by your side and gib you any advice you need .

These things just not gonna happen on me ..

I know my family just worry about me , they want me to be safe, stay away from dangerous.
But i just cant stop thinking that, why wont you just let me try for one time? Maybe that will be fine, everything is just be alright  . No robbery, no rappers, no pick pocket . I'll make sure to keep myself safe

Anyway, yeah ! Everything will be OK
Mum always the best, mum always correct  haha
She gb the best thing for me . Not for own sake

And how's my life going , i think there was something came up without my consciousness.
It's been a messy and busy month.
No phone, no call, no text , just photo !