A girl's Dream

The painter has the Universe in his/her mind and hands

When i was a kid , i start drawing , painting . 
If you ask me  , why you like to draw so much ? 
I really duno , i think i'll answer you about
I like Drawing , it means my life . when i have a pen in my hand 
my mind will start thinking and create much and much idea. 
And it is great . very great .
because , I do love it .


I'm in my own world , nobody will disturb you . 
What you need to do is , enjoy yourself in your art .
I believe in what i do and in my art or music ,
and in that respect you can call me that ,
I believe in what i'll do , i i'll say it out . 


I wish to be a designer , or an artist . 
I wonder to spent all my life in this regard . 
IT EASY TO SAY AND HARD TO DO IT 
For a 17 years old girl , thier future is very important .
And i've thought , I 'll be an architecture .SOON .
my mum had encourage me to do art . 
If i like to , she wont stop me .
and i really want it . 
But i not dare too , such annoying to myself . 


I admire those painters . 
They just like discard everything  , 
I dunno . what is their feeling ? 
It must be so great 
Maybe just have someone who never know what they are , 
but i think i get it . 
Cause i believe , Imagination rules the world . and myy world .


Everyone have their own pie in the sky . And i proud of mine . 

Because when you love something , 
you want to do it all the time, even is no one paying you for it 
At least that's how i felt about drawing.


Maybe , I'll be an artist ? Do I ? HAHA  
this such thing cannot be expected . But if in the future 
I really an artist , and i would say to myself .
You gain your world , and done your dream .




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Dear xxx :

I'm 17 . a form five student . All i want to say is : New year New life .
It's hard to believe , time really flues fast . Today is open school day
5 murni , my new class . i have new friend , and some old friend in ths class
I sit alone in this classs , this year .
Hmmm, it's a rare feeling . I feel uneasy . It has a empty space beside you
make you so scared . and
you dont even need to talk  . LIke , face a wall .
I'm sad , and a little bit mad . for the teacher , and my friend
I dont want to break up two of them . though we are closest
I think im a bad guy , although they are well-intentioned
I am very uncomfortable , today .
I feel like im lost to rely . someone had left me alone
i told my mum just now , she sad : slowly get used to
You get more attention . more independent , more hardworking
Did i really could handle it ?
I dun no
Maybe it's a chance for me .
Seize this opportunity , change it , and you be a more great girl .
One year , I really hope it gone fast .
All i need is . courage .



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