其实知道自己很久没用华语打字
突然间写回，莫名有点怪怪的感觉

今天纯粹上来发泄
太多废话想说 可是无从下手

开课已经一个月了
从无发适应到渐渐习惯是一种可怕的事情
当你认为自己没法做到的时候
时间帮你证明了一切

每一天的熬夜
都在redoredoredo
每一天的赶夜车
都能感觉到一点点的进步

与人相处是需要耐性和忍让
我不知dao
我只知道 能认识是一种缘分
我遇见你，便投缘，虽然相处时间不长
但那种感觉实实在在
喜欢就喜欢 不喜欢便罢

合不来 不强求
你不爽我 你不喜欢我
干我什么事
我没有太多宇宙时间去理你

人说变就变
真的让人觉得恐怖
没有想过的结果能让人措手不及
怪自己 不乖别人

nima 真的觉得好恶心
受不了了 虚伪的你
滚远点吧 孩子

Diary 15/7

It's been few days I didn't get a proper sleep since my class started
YUP, i'm already in degree, sem 1
I always expect these kind of days come faster becuz im gonna rot in ma own home


July is my favorite month this year.
I duno the reason, but it's just the feeling that I am so fascinating on it
A proper month and a proper things to do

I haven finish my assignment yet
There are so many things to work on
Drawing painting sketching drafting anywhere
kind of my stuff i used to do ,but no doubt
It's so fcking tire and stressing

I mean, It is just the first semester im taking
and how quick we get in the process so much faster than others
seniors advises -- all you got to do is
Drawing-- Redo --- drawing -- redo -- eat-- drawing
barely have the time to sleep

I feel so blessing
As I know, lecturers are not going to give us any tips ( not the exam)
Just the projects that they had told
how the instruction that need to follow, but is not kinda of that flow
There're just rotating from this angle to that angle
you need to be creative , Man

So, seniors always the best
they give us advise, bring us on
lead us to the way that it should be

trying to imagine that drawing four things with different techniques
choose one things that you mostly wanted
learn the element and principles in it and convey them to others object/things that got these
It it just toooooo heavy


still trying to adapt the new environment in here
everything is fine here
clean, beauty, quiet place that i'm staying
there is a serious problem in north wing --
less food stall and shop around the corner
you need to walk so much further to get those 'food'



I'm still in love with this course
although there are so many people complain about it
how hard it should be , how pressure it should be
but what i'm thinking is
gotta enjoy your years and stay and works and
those achievements are just gonna make you feel so satisfy
life is so short--------------- enjoys it while you still can

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

Like I always said, times flies.
It just been 13 years since my dad passed away
so many things to say, so many things to do
and turn out to how much i miss him


My dad left me when i was six
imagine that time of me , I probably dunno what had happened to my dad
what i knew was, he slept deeply  and wont wake up again
In my memory, my dad was very tall he had a wide shoulder
who always carry us on it when he is back from work
He got a bit serious but oweys showed the other ways of love to us


I never had a chance to say HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
when we was young, my grandma call us to write a letter and burnt it
she said your dad in the other side will receive it
look how young we were, and how naive we were


I doesn't dream about my dad often
my sister was.
i know is becuz im still too young to remember and review all those memories
there are just bits and piece came to my mind
we got many photos , about my dad
our family and the most profound is he hold me and my cousins in hand
with a greatly pleasure and lovable smile.
how sweet is it


with special love to my dad , all i want to say is
Hey dad, im your little daughter , i miss you
I'm not a kid anymore, I'd grew out to be a lass
there is still two years for me to be an adult
but no matter how old i'd become , i'm still your lovely daughter
just like you'd told me
I'm good, we are good .... mum , sister and me

somehow in some midnight, memories oweys pop up unconsciously
I'm emotionally attached  to those circumstance that recall you
It‘s hard to restraint when you know someone had left you forever
you never got a chance to see him , touch him, or feel him again
bu i always talk to myself. yeah, it's okay
after cried, everything will be fine because I still got mum and sis beside me
I missed those times that get to call you dad
It felt weird when you get to know people had a complete family but you don't
you need to act normal , pretend that's fine .
but i had let it down, becuz times is the best cure


In life i loved you dearly,
In death i love you still
In my heart you hold a place
no one else can fill

Thinking of you, today and everyday
your lovely daughter
xxx

Dairy 13-6

It's 6pm already. I need to finish this before going out having dinner with family again.
So, I have to tell that mine June holiday was/is really suck. At all
Like, really suck it, oh gosh!
You know, I've planned all these things and they normally don't go the way you think
I get hives in the very first day of June with my period
they came together and totally freak me off
I rather have pain than the itchy feeling but the worst is they both just exist
count for today, it's ald 13 days.
I know it sounds crazy but yeah, a person (me) get hives for almost two weeks
My family keep saying that : Are you an abnormal people? bcuz you look like soo weak
I have no idea .
New scars are everywhere on my body   *sigh*
My face looks pale But it's disappointed that I din slim down

Girls always want to get as skinny as they can 

Hahaha 

HMm, i heard someone  talked about how distance kills a  relationship 

They said timing is crucial, is that real or what 

Things often get messed up, time gets messed up.

You meet someone and you both are good together 

Someone comes along but This someone is never meant for you, like never meant to be with you

Its totally falls to fate and destiny 

Well, this is definitely what I'm thinking only 

Whether is true or not,  there is no offense 

I know a couple, they have been together for almost seven years 

But it ends up as break up 

The girl met another guy and they are going to step into marriage 

Like hey, although they been tgt for so long but he is not her true love?  I guess 

You really like him or her, but you know you both will never be together 

It doesn't mean that you don't like him or her 

it doesn't mean that the  love between you two is not strong enough to break through obstacle 

Hmm, it just doesn't work This way 

I know I'm probably too young to say all about this 

I'm still confuse 

I just wish I'm Lucky enough to share about the love of my life one day