College / uni

Hey blogger , i start writing back my blog after gone through a very long months
Ya , i started my college life , i stayed in hostel about three weeks
First at all , my first impression on my uni is " NOT THAT BIG THAN I EXPERT "
This uni got four blocks , Block A , B C and D .
Really mean that i almost didnt know the uni i study whether is north or south wings
LOL , it's really funny


Four subjects i have take this semester , maths econ marketing and OA
wooowwww i think the math for me is the most easy one
Economic , i guess i like it or maybe love it soon
Honestly . Oa is really not my favor ..........
there are all microsoft office " Excel ... POwer point " blablabla
and the reference book
( just want to throw it when i got )


Here to say , New life New start New beginning
Right ? everyone just got to cross new bridge when they grow up
we gonna take responsible for ourself
well , i'll try my best to get the best mark , and you know ( try to love my sub )
although i knew it's really hard


And now , most of all my friend also start their new college life
except my only precious babe ....... HAHAHA
Maybe you will few scare , pressure , excited or panic
but is ok . everyone just need to step out the first step
I . myself also feel scared the first time i left home .
I miss my family so much , they just keep rolling in my head
I want to touch them , want to see their face , want to feel their warm .
i got sick the first week , I cried for mum is not being with me .
i just like an easy broken doll . Hoping someone is beside me that time



But is okay .. is All right , is fine ....
I made through this  , and i pretty sure that you can do this
We are so tough . so strong
Cheer up , my all dear friends


Stop here and saying goodnight ~!

awkward chat

I have privatised my blog for a week ++
i had quite confusing mood in the last few weeks
keep looking back my own blog , i felt so strange on it .
So i just closed it .


things happen all these days and a little tiny stuff can control ur whole mood
always get mad when teaching some students are so naughty
noticed that i am totally not suit for being a teacher
I'm not a good teacher , i knew


I'm ready for the college life , just left two weeks
i'll keep moving for the next step .
enjoy the days with mama to buy all the stuff i need
we talked we laugh we either had fun with each others
good memories always in my mind
Love you mama .


Still remembered , often download game to play when having holidaysss
this year , still never miss
but from 3d to 2d .
i mean , the game is very easy to play because you can just let it when you're busy
i make some new friends , they are kindly and always have joke with me
bcuz im the youngest among them .
For me , the friend that i met in games are so real
We chit chat , scold others , make jokes . Take care of each other
i think that maybe i can threat them like a true friend
Why NOT ?



People just gonna re-memories when they getting bigger or older .
me either .
I always miss the moments with my buddies
although some we are almost stranger to each others .
and i would think , why people so easy to change ?
becuz of the reject ?
bcuz of the jealous ?
bcuz of not trust each other ?
Or just bcuz the times  , the times that past too fast
and you even dun realize that you have changed
we just getting further when we're walking and in the end
we just turn the back to each others .


Goodbye My friends , I'll miss the part you were in my life .

Eighteen 18

Okay , something that i need to say is
"Happy Chinese New Year '
So , this year is two zero one four , and i'm officially eighteen
My birthday just past two days
Quite nice to say that i celebrated with all my lovely family
Cousin , aunt , uncle , and others ....
although it fell sad that i didn't celebrated with my good good friends
but anywhere , is okayy . Promise will celebrate together soon


ya , i am 18 , i am a free girl.
i can kick off the shackles and go about my life as my wish
i am not longer back to the school anymore .
and i get away from teachers and those rump bumpp bump
technically , people used to be happy when they get off the suck school life
but i think that physically we used to miss our own school life
those memories  , those funny motions , and etc etc ..
and i felt that maybe i just dun really so miss the school cause people had to look forward right?
you just cant keep re-memories all those things and stay in the same spot .

people in my age start to work when they graduated ..
and a few is going PLKN .
i feel so lucky that i no need to invovle myself in it
because i know i will definetely hate it .
I am too working as a kindergarten teacher .
i get paid , and this work is so fucking tire and hard
till this times , i realize how difficult my mum when working to get the salary
but sometimes , children does cute .
their act , naive and ignorant .. and they often make me laugh


There are so many things i wish to do in 18
get tattoos / piercing 
not have to listen to anyone
move if i want to
get a credit card
get my own cell phone plan
join some dancing class
join my art class
learn how to make up
get a boyfee
work as many hours as i want to
get a car
this is how a legal adult do , right ?
and......  this is what im thinking and maybe i just think
i didn't have to achieve it , because sometimes is just cant happen at all
Dream . !



I am a eighteen girl  . its time for me to get in a new college /uni
make some new friends , take some new action  and
try to enjoy it .
Sit alone in silence for at least ten minute every day
i always use this time to think , plan , reflect ,and dream .
you got to make some change because life is so impressive
i always talk to myself . what should a 18 girl be ?
will they take responsibility to their home
will they sleep until 12 o'clock for doing nothing ?
will they take a risk to achieve the dream that is so impossible
will they strong enough to get through all fucking shit


OOps , it is so much questions that a eighteen should carries about .
and i guess i will non stopping until i get my own answers

2013-12-01

As the time passed , we all are growing up . So fast . Come to the end of the year , happy December . 

I gonna to say that . November is the trouble month for me . 

I started spm in this month 

And many things happen in this month.

The latest , I was sent to hospital again 

Just because of that stupid fellow things about the period , woman's things .

I was mad  anger ? How weak is my body and I can't even handle it . 

It's fucking pain , and you gonna believe that I'm not lying . I cried like losing control , I knew I scared my mum . But I didn't had the choice . It make me crumble . Hopefully , my entire life will getting better and stay away from this silly sickness . 

Well it's grate to say : left one paper for me In December ! 

So , I think I put effort on some objects , and the left . I'm just say I try my best .

That's the word : pay more gain more .

God bless me !!! Although I'm nt a Kristian 

Friendship , it hard to say about it .

I realize evertime I touch my blog 

I always want to say something's about friendship . 

We argue . I think so . And I just want to give up and forget all those things happened . I felt dissappointed . Why you 

Not the one who told me the things 

At first ? Okay , I'm just really focus in those things . Maybe some kind of friend 

They didn't even bother . 

For me , I want to know things you had decided from you own , not the other who should told me about your stuff 

You know how i fell ? 

I feel awkward and sad . It is so bad . 

Hey you're kidding me z 

After the last paper , maybe I'll find a job for myself ? 

Learn to be a discipline girl , don't worry my mum . It just a suggest 

Lol , I didn't even think I can do it . 

Just simply update , here to say 

Goodnight dearest , sweet dream always