this moment

Ain't nobody know you so deep that you know yourself.
Sometimes people always tell others like : ‘ Hey, I know this guy very well'
Is it really true?
Maybe you know how he/she the way he/she do, know he/she daily life action
but deep down their heart, there is always a private space for themselves
I guess is true.

I always hope a friendship will long lasting forever, like fo-ever
Nothing can beat this friendship , like there's a strong bonding between


I never meant to make more friends as others cuz i'm an introvert person
I barely could just sit aside and watch guys talk themselves
I don't mind to be ignore , and actually I enjoy it
Sometimes people talk to me , ' You look totally different when truly know you' blablabla
This kind of words actually exhilarate me , totally .. Ha

When i care something, I really care about it
I'll do what is the best for it becuz I enjoy doing it
I appreciate everything that happen between this relationship and never meant to lost it

Kinda of days like, i'm in my own excitement
this really happens and i feel im the one who care too much
and me, myself feel vexed all these times
am i too over reacted or did i think too much
no ideas at all
im sick of it

everyone is different
do not expect others to think what you are thinking
maybe the things you treat it like precious is the one that people dont even give a shit
you treasure this friendship  you think you are one of it and
sometimes you dont even know that there are no space for you already
they have their own circle own social circle own friendship circle
dont expect too much  it hurts you really bad when you fall deeply down
becuz it's just don't work that way


'You'll end up real disappointed if you think people will do for you as you do for them. Not everone has the same heart as you'

expectation kill everything  that's right
this is how i feel right now . i duno what will i feel the next morning but this moment
i feel bad, really really bad.
is time to go bed , goodnight
love ya, xx

Say hello to my holiday

Say Hi again..  I'm finally back from my busy uni life and homework + exam.

So Today, I'd finish my final exam and starting my holidays ~~~ been busy packing all the stuff and clothes into my luggage because I ammmm gonna move out from my hostel.
It's been a year, If I say that not gonna miss here - This is all just a lie, Haha.  I miss all those things that happened here, people I met, days we been through, and how we talk east talk west about everything. There're all just so sweet and memorable.

I'm Still bother about where should I stay When I move to north wings.  *sigh*
Apparently, I want to live outside becuz it's more free and more cheap than hostel ever again. No lie ** But in the other side, I struggle a lot and I feel like Maybe hostel is more suitable for me?  No idea
My mum is the one who completely dislike, reject, and donwan me to stay outside.  Too many reasons that make me feel like
* Maybe I shouldn't stay outside ,should stay in hostel *  am completely compelled

I want to make my own choice, you know. Those kind of things.  When you make a decision, sure that you hope your closely  one will stand by your side and gib you any advice you need .

These things just not gonna happen on me ..

I know my family just worry about me , they want me to be safe, stay away from dangerous.
But i just cant stop thinking that, why wont you just let me try for one time? Maybe that will be fine, everything is just be alright  . No robbery, no rappers, no pick pocket . I'll make sure to keep myself safe

Anyway, yeah ! Everything will be OK
Mum always the best, mum always correct  haha
She gb the best thing for me . Not for own sake

And how's my life going , i think there was something came up without my consciousness.
It's been a messy and busy month.
No phone, no call, no text , just photo !

2015 first post

So,  I had change my background of my blog yesterday?  I guess.  Make it simple and clean.
Since When my favourite colour had changed from purple pink to white and black?  I had no idea.
But, red is the one that attract me the most. No doubt

Erm,  I just want to say that, I'm officially nineteen.
Clap clap for Myself,  big girl already. As normal, am not very excited for my birthday that day But I get some surprise from my friends. Touched and touched.  Feeling blessed that having such gang of friends with you guys and importantly, My family!
I got a big Beauty cake from mama. And some painting equipment from sister.  ~~~~ words can't described how I felt.

Had one week  holiday becuz of Chinese new year, did not enjoy it very well.  Lol.
Got midterm exam When back from home and now I am burning midnight oil to finish all those  subjects.  And ya,  This is my last semester of foundation and I got two months holidays. So we already start planning where we want to go, what place are better and which one is more interesting.  Hope I got a memorable days with my friends before we separate apart.! 

In 2015, I think I got many things to do.  Seriously
When you are getting older, you'll become mature and you want more and more.  So I am
Not going to chase those comic / novels again because you need to blow your mind and study all those words that irritating you.  Actually I don't like history nor psychology and even oral communication.  They just, not interesting at all.
I'm really feel grateful to my bro that always cheer me up and send those gambateh words that write from his friends, haha. It look stupid but quiet touched

Am keep remember that my relative always ask me whether I got a boyfriend ald or not?  The answer is : Noooo. Hahahaa.
Well, the things I want to say is,, I Still haven meet someone that very attract me a lot? Cuz I'm very picky in This stuff????  Okay, no answer and dunwan to know.  Friends are all getting in relationship and they're just gonna ask you:  eh ting, Still didn't have boyfriend yet?  So old le loh
I just feel.  ...... and really duno how to say, hahaha
I know When it is time,  it will come . No need so harsh and im just gonna enjoy This moment,  single time anyway.

Totally want to slim all the day and my mind is bursting. Am i a optimiatic or pessimistic?

Ps:  During sembreak,  I want to find a job and experience what is the feeling of being working with outsiders.  Blush blush, I totally lazy to But everyone need to try new things not?  Convince myself ing lol.  Byeeee. Love ya

Hmm?

I write this post is to remind the future of myself whenever i going through tough and feel down again.

I know im kind that people that always think too much and make myself frustrating. All the time.
Life always go ups and downs, you never know what is going on in the next day. So, cherish all the days and nights you going through.

Don't ever hate yourself , be confident as always although people are not 100% perfect at all. You need to smile in every single inch of your life although I know you are not that kind of ppl. But, try get rid of it becuz all of this will become more simple and easy when you try and learn and change. Let go of the things that make you unhappy. I know it's hard but i promise you will feel a whole lot lighter on your shoulder.

Sticks to your belief. Don't give up something on the half way. If you want to achieve it, put all your effort on it. Don't find any excuse for yourself about this is so hard, this is too tire for me .. etc etc

Do more of what makes you happy. Ya, this is absolutely right. If you feel this thing is not what you want, forget it, throw it away as far as you can and just don't bother it.  What i mean is do it for yourself, and dun grievance urself for those who are not worth.

Always talk to someone when you feel depressed. Your family, friends, and others you think you can express your feelings to. Maintain a healthy body ? remember this is what mom always told you. Get some exercise, go to gym, go swimming, have bowling with friends. When you do all these, you will feel more happy and reduce the stress.

Don't be shy to talk to someone. Be brave. This is what you want for isn't?

Okay, i will stop here .
Always wish my family stay healthy and happy , Love ya