HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

Like I always said, times flies.
It just been 13 years since my dad passed away
so many things to say, so many things to do
and turn out to how much i miss him


My dad left me when i was six
imagine that time of me , I probably dunno what had happened to my dad
what i knew was, he slept deeply  and wont wake up again
In my memory, my dad was very tall he had a wide shoulder
who always carry us on it when he is back from work
He got a bit serious but oweys showed the other ways of love to us


I never had a chance to say HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
when we was young, my grandma call us to write a letter and burnt it
she said your dad in the other side will receive it
look how young we were, and how naive we were


I doesn't dream about my dad often
my sister was.
i know is becuz im still too young to remember and review all those memories
there are just bits and piece came to my mind
we got many photos , about my dad
our family and the most profound is he hold me and my cousins in hand
with a greatly pleasure and lovable smile.
how sweet is it


with special love to my dad , all i want to say is
Hey dad, im your little daughter , i miss you
I'm not a kid anymore, I'd grew out to be a lass
there is still two years for me to be an adult
but no matter how old i'd become , i'm still your lovely daughter
just like you'd told me
I'm good, we are good .... mum , sister and me

somehow in some midnight, memories oweys pop up unconsciously
I'm emotionally attached  to those circumstance that recall you
It‘s hard to restraint when you know someone had left you forever
you never got a chance to see him , touch him, or feel him again
bu i always talk to myself. yeah, it's okay
after cried, everything will be fine because I still got mum and sis beside me
I missed those times that get to call you dad
It felt weird when you get to know people had a complete family but you don't
you need to act normal , pretend that's fine .
but i had let it down, becuz times is the best cure


In life i loved you dearly,
In death i love you still
In my heart you hold a place
no one else can fill

Thinking of you, today and everyday
your lovely daughter
xxx

Dairy 13-6

It's 6pm already. I need to finish this before going out having dinner with family again.
So, I have to tell that mine June holiday was/is really suck. At all
Like, really suck it, oh gosh!
You know, I've planned all these things and they normally don't go the way you think
I get hives in the very first day of June with my period
they came together and totally freak me off
I rather have pain than the itchy feeling but the worst is they both just exist
count for today, it's ald 13 days.
I know it sounds crazy but yeah, a person (me) get hives for almost two weeks
My family keep saying that : Are you an abnormal people? bcuz you look like soo weak
I have no idea .
New scars are everywhere on my body   *sigh*
My face looks pale But it's disappointed that I din slim down

Girls always want to get as skinny as they can 

Hahaha 

HMm, i heard someone  talked about how distance kills a  relationship 

They said timing is crucial, is that real or what 

Things often get messed up, time gets messed up.

You meet someone and you both are good together 

Someone comes along but This someone is never meant for you, like never meant to be with you

Its totally falls to fate and destiny 

Well, this is definitely what I'm thinking only 

Whether is true or not,  there is no offense 

I know a couple, they have been together for almost seven years 

But it ends up as break up 

The girl met another guy and they are going to step into marriage 

Like hey, although they been tgt for so long but he is not her true love?  I guess 

You really like him or her, but you know you both will never be together 

It doesn't mean that you don't like him or her 

it doesn't mean that the  love between you two is not strong enough to break through obstacle 

Hmm, it just doesn't work This way 

I know I'm probably too young to say all about this 

I'm still confuse 

I just wish I'm Lucky enough to share about the love of my life one day 

Random again

I'm startIng to  find out that everytime I touch my blog, it's always gonna lead to bad mood + memories. 

I dunno Why, Maybe When you feeling freaking pass out or Moody, here always the best place  for you to write out what you really want to say. 

My baebe hamster passed away few days ago
I know the time will come But I din expected it comes so fast.  She lived with us for almost two years and a half.  I feel sad and sorry and the things I could do was buried her and said Rip.
She was so sweet that bring us the happiness .
She was so small that make us wanted to hug her forever in arm.
She was so weak after and struggled all these week.
She was a sweet angel and Still counting for me

the world is Still rotating but people change.
since When we dun talk to  each other
Since When we dun chat to each other
And since when we dun contact each other
I feel the distance and yeah.
These thing always happen

Today, chewan and me went for swimming
She want me to teach her how to swim and I
Not completely really know-how to *shy*
It's been so long after pmr.
Finally I back to swimming life again.
Gonna take care of my skin carefully becuz I dunwan back to the black skin of me again
It's so funny When I am in black skin
Totally loom like a smuft.

Love ya,  xx

oh so random

Hello guys, finally it is first of may already .
I just thought that I can't even manage to catch the tail of time again
there just flew away so much faster than i thought

actually i dun really know what to write but kinda has a feeling to update my blog
because i had nothing to do at home , except playing my online game
and it is not good for me becuz my mum always purposely dont like it
i should read all my novel that i bought last week and pay fully concentration on my 'weight lost'
been confuse by my cousin and now im totally indulge in the game
they all know i'm the one with 'half boiled heat'
after one week later and count for today, I had no mood to continue playing again


I know i should restraint myself or otherwise these whole holidays will be a waste.


Talk about April holidays, we have two days trip in melaka
well , although it's not what we planned before but Yeah
I had a great trip , feel totally crazy again
got back the feeling that already lost after high school graduation
just so much thankiu for the boys that willing to accompanied us all the days

was just wanted to post pictures but suddenly crap and broken . ' what a waste'


before I write this post, I read again and again other blogger's post
and i feel like , wow
there are so less people who is still continue their blogging life.
especially those high school friends


Miss all the moments that we jot down the things that had happen and those memories
and seriously I really dun wan to grow up .
I want to be a kid always , free from anything
Free from pressure
free from argue
free from hypocritical
free from upset
free from time ( always think time is not enough )


I know i should think more positive
but i just feel there is so much different compare to where we from


I was happy all whole day, i get up early jogging with mum
take a shower and rush for work.
patiently treat and teach all the kids
back to home to take a nap
at night, i was totally different from morning
i was grumpy , i was negative
and i think too much that is just not so good at all
i feel helpless and nothing can i do


I am weird . hate it 99
I don't know.
But then again, I would question myself how much effort have I really put ?
Don't think too much and treat the world like there is always a hope for you