四月的晚上、

我想你了 ，希望一刻都不离开你


三月假期终于结束了 ，生活回到轨道上
开学的日子还是一样让人想睡觉
但我会用心、专心、努力、对待每一件事


我对自己许了一个愿望 、有点不切实际
但有希望总能达到的
这个大大的愿望 装忙了许多小小的希望
我不用口说 、时间总能证明一切
让我们对未来的自己加把劲





觉得自己有恋母情结
母亲刚离开的第一天 、思恋沾满我的心
就好像等待着糖果的小孩、盼望妈妈的归来
妈妈常说 、这是人生之路
好好享受这一路的旅程 、 是身为孩子的责任


我非常依赖她
我不懂这是好事 还是坏事？
但起码 、我不排斥
习惯什么时都对你说 、聊聊彼此 、说说闲话
啊 ， 感慨女生总是这样
你是我心灵的支柱 T^T


每次听朋友对我的看法
刚开始不认识觉得很斯文 、 认识了觉得不像女的
朋友对我的了解
母亲桥身惯养的小公主
每次听了 、都会觉得有一点点的失望
我不否认 、但我也没同意
我想表达的是 、每个女孩都是自己父母眼中的公主

某某时刻会有不同的心情与想法
我有过两种
我很骄傲 、能过作为妈妈的小公主
这是无人能代替的
我自信、我潇洒 、我洒脱
一句话  、 我活的毫无顾虑

我会愤怒
接着会开始检讨自己哪个举止让人有这样的想法？
迫切希望自己快点长大  、学会独立 、自立和自律
我又会开始碎碎念 、胡思乱想 ！


近路四月头了、 重复对自己说要加倍努力 、
我害怕 让任何一个对我有期望的人失望
这感觉 、并不好受
但我知道自己几根葱
很多时候 、人总是喜欢在嘴上说说而已
可能他们真的有认真想去完成那件事？

我又给了自己一个问题了
暂时什么都不想、 读书最快乐 、最重要 ！

A girl's Dream

The painter has the Universe in his/her mind and hands

When i was a kid , i start drawing , painting . 
If you ask me  , why you like to draw so much ? 
I really duno , i think i'll answer you about
I like Drawing , it means my life . when i have a pen in my hand 
my mind will start thinking and create much and much idea. 
And it is great . very great .
because , I do love it .


I'm in my own world , nobody will disturb you . 
What you need to do is , enjoy yourself in your art .
I believe in what i do and in my art or music ,
and in that respect you can call me that ,
I believe in what i'll do , i i'll say it out . 


I wish to be a designer , or an artist . 
I wonder to spent all my life in this regard . 
IT EASY TO SAY AND HARD TO DO IT 
For a 17 years old girl , thier future is very important .
And i've thought , I 'll be an architecture .SOON .
my mum had encourage me to do art . 
If i like to , she wont stop me .
and i really want it . 
But i not dare too , such annoying to myself . 


I admire those painters . 
They just like discard everything  , 
I dunno . what is their feeling ? 
It must be so great 
Maybe just have someone who never know what they are , 
but i think i get it . 
Cause i believe , Imagination rules the world . and myy world .


Everyone have their own pie in the sky . And i proud of mine . 

Because when you love something , 
you want to do it all the time, even is no one paying you for it 
At least that's how i felt about drawing.


Maybe , I'll be an artist ? Do I ? HAHA  
this such thing cannot be expected . But if in the future 
I really an artist , and i would say to myself .
You gain your world , and done your dream .




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Dear xxx :

I'm 17 . a form five student . All i want to say is : New year New life .
It's hard to believe , time really flues fast . Today is open school day
5 murni , my new class . i have new friend , and some old friend in ths class
I sit alone in this classs , this year .
Hmmm, it's a rare feeling . I feel uneasy . It has a empty space beside you
make you so scared . and
you dont even need to talk  . LIke , face a wall .
I'm sad , and a little bit mad . for the teacher , and my friend
I dont want to break up two of them . though we are closest
I think im a bad guy , although they are well-intentioned
I am very uncomfortable , today .
I feel like im lost to rely . someone had left me alone
i told my mum just now , she sad : slowly get used to
You get more attention . more independent , more hardworking
Did i really could handle it ?
I dun no
Maybe it's a chance for me .
Seize this opportunity , change it , and you be a more great girl .
One year , I really hope it gone fast .
All i need is . courage .



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